Statement of Solidarity

To all the other Little Voices:

We are waking up to the abuses of our environment,

We have been told we are bad and crazy,

and we are obedient.

We have acted bad and crazy.

We have screamed to get our voices heard

and we are labelled manic.

We have been disbelieved,

and we are labelled distrusting.

We have learned from infancy that safety is arbitrary,

and we are called paranoid.

We have anticipated punishment and deferred to pretenses,

and we have been punished for being manipulative.

We must fragment ourselves to integrate multiple realities,

and this process is called psychosis.

What do labels mean to you?

6 ways to recover from Complex Trauma or Complex PTSD

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By David Joel Miller.

You can recover from Complex Trauma or Complex PTSD

Complex Trauma or Complex PTSD is the result of repeated injuries, each of which create additional trauma. Complex Trauma frequently arises in children who are abused or neglected over long periods of time or survivors of sexual assaults who are re-assaulted.

Being injured once is bad enough but repeated traumatization can result in problems far in excess of those caused by a single trauma. People who were traumatized in childhood and then retraumatize in later life are likely to develop severe and debilitating symptoms. Some researchers have suggested the name of Complex Trauma or Complex PTSD for this condition.

It appears that many people can experience severe trauma, recover and not develop PTSD. Some of the symptoms of PTSD are normal reactions to experiencing a trauma – in the short run. If the reaction is excessive, interferes…

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Coping strategies for living alone with epilepsy

A post-ictal emotional debriefing with myself.

Since I live alone, I have to find ways to navigate the electric time-space warp they call a “seizure” by myself. It’s similar to guiding yourself through a short acid trip (I would imagine… 😛 )

The seizure itself may have been a secondarily generealized tonic-clonic, Although my level of ictal consciousness indicates it may have been a complex focal with clonic movements instead. It lasted maybe 5 minutes with another 10-15 minutes of laying on the ground saying, “come on, legs! let’s go, legs!” This is the phenomenon known as “Todd’s paralysis,” or post-ictal weakness. If you can, when someone has a seizure, let them be for a good 15-20 minutes because they’re not just tired – they’re actually paralyzed.

I managed to crawl up the stairs and get my camera going about 20 mins later. In this video I talk a little bit about my coping strategies for living alone with epilepsy. Besides counting from 0-60 and back, I start grounding exercises as soon as I feel the electricity dying down. “The dog is white. The cars are parked. The sea is gray. There are two birds.” Etc. It helps me remember where I am and why I’m laying on the ground feeling like a rag doll.

I sure was rolling around in the ol’ yard. I just noticed that piece of grass on my head, haha!

Anxiety

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Art by Marian Goodman http://www.mariangoodman.com/

The way my thoughts tumble and and jostle keep my words spinning in mixtures of complete and incomplete urges, thoughts, sentences. Usually words help me tie down my emotions, bleed them out through pen ink on paper. But now words flap around inside me and my body urges me to keep moving, to fly away from this. Words are not my lifeline today. Focus is not my friend.

“Vico presents as anxious, confused, and disorganized. When in crisis, Vico likely experiences episodes of impaired judgement and deterioration in reality testing, This may include unusual perceptual experiences, magical thinking, or delusional beliefs.”

“Pour myself a cup of coffee full of sober nights; ‘cuz nicotine and caffeine are my friends in this fight” – Ida Maria